Friday, January 19, 2007

More on My Momma....

Momma is breathing on her own, though there is no change. She still cannot talk, see, comprehend etc...They are moving her home to her apartment for Hospice. This is something that Momma would have wanted. To be home...I ask myself, Why? Why does God allow someone to linger on in this state? The doctors say she is not aware. I would not wish this on my worst enemy. I'm trying to remember her sweet smiling face, instead of the way she was in the hospital.
Please keep us in your prayers. I find some comfort in writing about it, though I know it's not the kind of thing you would want to read about.
Thank you anyway, for taking the time to read my thoughts. My thoughts are scattered right now, and I may not be doing things right.

All I can say is, Momma, please forgive me, if I do anything wrong. Momma, I love you so..I don't know what to do, but to take it one moment at a time.


Angela said...

Wow - I don't even know you, but you and your family will be in my prayers.

Indelibrella said...

Maybe she needs this time at home so her you can all be with her more intimately. Being at home is much better.

God bless you all...and give you peace.


rebecca said...

you are absolutely doing the right thing - both for her and yourself.

you are soooooo special, don't ever forget that. and part of that is because of your momma. the photo of the flowers - so delicate and beautiful, like life and like your soul.

may you find moments of peace in this heart-wrenching time for you and your family. we'll be coming back to hear more. write as long as it helps you. you know we'll be here to read.

Miss 1999 said...

*Sending you many thoughts and prayers during this difficult time* I often, too, wonder why God allows people to exist this way-- I know it's all in his time, and perhaps, even if she can't speak, she knows she's home, and that's where she wants to be. If you need to talk, I'm here *hugs*

Join Us: said...

My prayers are with you Steph and know that this is a terrible time in your life. You have the strength of our Heavenly Father to help you through this time and many friends that love you.

Hugs, Zissy